Letter to my Mom…
Ma…..I will really NEVER forget the last few days of your life. We shared laughs, cries, and all different types of emotions but the memory I will forever remember, occurred during the last few days before you died. There are some moments which change your life and you are not the same. Oh the memories, they rush through my mind all the time.
Today is 24th February 2018 and the same day three years back you left us forever. Today, Its been three years mom…three years that I have not called you and talked to you, three years that I have not heard from you, three years no one calls my name as you used to, its been three years and I know this is going to continue since my last breath, as they say one who leaves us for heaven never come back. Its been three years that I have been keeping all my promises that I made to you in that closed room of the hospital, where you taught me so much which I had never learnt in my life earlier. You gave me the gist of life, where you shared with me so much of your pain and where you guided me how to live my life without you. It was so similar to something Lord Krishna shared with Arjun….it was for me “the Geeta Saar” of my life
Your words still echoes in my ear telling me that you are not going anywhere but going to be Me, in my soul and whenever I miss you I should hug myself and feel my Ma there with me. It wasn’t simple Ma but I have tried to do the same and have often found myself smiling at myself as you used to smile at me, motivating myself as if you and Pa would have motivated me. I have always missed those pats on my back since you have gone, now no one is there to share my victorious moments, and listen to my stories the way you used to do. But Ma, I still share it with you, feeling that you are somewhere very near and still patting my back and listening to me , the chirpiest one as used to call me.
Physical planes cannot separate love and I know this to be true. Although you have gone physically your presence is still there, in me, in my cooking, in the compliments that I receive when people say I look like you. My relationship with you ma, continues on each and every day and will for the rest of my life. You live on through me.I see pieces of you in myself every time I look in the mirror. And when I miss you I close my eyes and find you in front of me, smiling at me, no pain on your face but just peace and love. And then I promise you again that I will keep all my promises.
Love you Ma…..
After my mom passed away I felt a strong urge to share her story with anyone who would listen. She was such an inspiration and specially during her last few days in hospital she made an everlasting impact on everyone. Every doctor and every nurse was awestruck with the kind of courage she showed. And encouraged by my Angel Mom, Through my blogging experience I too hope to continue to inspire many more.
